5 April

e folks at my office, esp Ivan n Yutaka n Yutaka’s fam, r trying their v best 2 bring Raymond n me 2gether. Cos Raymond is 25% chinese n he only goes 4 chinese gals, they r tryin 2 do tis. Raymond x-gfs r all chinese n he juz brke off w hs gf. N I dun hv a bf so Yutaka n Ivan tinks tat we r a gd match. Dun knw hw tat 2 silly boys got tis silly idea. N recently they did smetng really silly.

Both of thm passed me Raymond’s no. N whn I challenged Yutaka 2 call Raymond 2 prove tat the no is hs, Yutaka called hm n made me tok 2 hm. Paiseh. At tat time Raymond was hvng dinner w hs frens. Cld hear hs other frens teasing hm. Nw everytime Raymond c me he will ask me ‘Do u wan 2 follow me 2 e toilet?’. He always tease me.

Once whn i ret Raymond’s call, Felix pick e phone n ask me if I like Raymond. Felix ask if I’m Raymond’s gf.

Since they gve Raymond 2 me, I shld accept hm, as part of curtsy ma. Tnk I will play along w em instd of avdng. n Yutaka alwz say ‘Raymond is urs, oth gals dun dare tch’.

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Raymond hs a gf n cn still ask me go toilet w hm. He hs gf n cn still flirt w me. So must ask Justin 2 catch hm 4 being unfaithful! :)

I m puzzled 2. I m also puzzled why ivan n yutaka pass me raymond’s no whn he hs a gf. I m also puzzled why he treats me so well whn he has a gf. I m also puzzled why I gt teased whn he hs a gf. Mayb they got 2gether again. Mayb the earlier brkup was much earlier. I juz found out yest whn he mentioned her. I m puzzled n wld like 2 knw e ans 2. :)

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If I hd grwn 2 like Raymond then i m being stupid rite? i knw it is a game but I smehw like hm. I m stupid rite? I had treated hm like a brother fr e start n made tis clear 2 hm. He also says he values me as a sis. But smehw along e way I liked hm.

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Did sme soul searching, I think I have fallen in LOVE with RAYMOND! But dun worrie. I am REALISTIC. I m contented 2 love him secretly n give hm all the support , care n concern he needs, without hm ever knwing. My only wish is 4 hm 2 invite me 2 hs wedding, when he marries. Cos tis wld mean tat he treats me as a cloze frnd. Raymond will never get to knw tat I an lian hm. U knw, we r abit closer nw, n I m hapie w the way tings r. to love sme1 is 2 c hm happy.

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Raymond Mah is like a riddle - hard 2 crack yet interesting n fun. Raymond Mah is like mimosa - lkng at hm, u’ll find hm nice, frenly, cute, cheeky, fun lovng n cheerful. Bt if u get closer 2 him, u will fnd hm a sensitive persn who is sensitive n insecure abt hs feelings. On e outside he lks like e sunshine boy bt inside he’s shy. Raymond Mah is my life buoy, one tat i rely on 4 emotional support. He is e spark in my life. Raymond’s tat impt 2 me.

Raymond Mah is e 1st guy i gave my heart 2. He is e first person who gave me joy n pain. He’s special 2 me cos, after going so much pain b’cos of him, my love 4 hm never faded. Instead, it strengthened. I m thankful 2 Yutaka who made our meeting in life possible, who made me experience my first love. He’s no passerby in my life, he’s here 2 stay. I love Raymond Mah very much, n nothing can change that. :)

I love u, Raymond Mah. I love u very much. Raymond, I love u so much that ur mood affects mine. When u r happy, my spirits r lifted. When u r down or feeling lonely, I feel down 2. Raymond, I love u so much tat even if I were 2 hv a bf 1 dae, my love 4 him wun b as great as my luv 4 u. Even if I marry another man, I wun stop loving u n neither will I ever 4get u. e reason is tat I love u 2 much. Raymond, in my heart, u r my evrything. Without u, I’ll b in pain.

Raymond is very important 2 me. Even after he marries, altho I wun b waiting or pining 4 hm, I will still love hm. But it will b a luv tat will be secretly locked in my heart. U will never knw tat I love u, Raymond Mah. I knw myself tat even if i try my best 2 change e love 2 bro-sis love, it will nt be changed completely.

Raymond Mah, 2dae, 20 Jun, is exactly 3 mths since we knew each other. But, Raymond Mah, in juz 3 mths, u have changed my life 4eva. :)